Jill Zarin Exclusive Blog Reunion Pt 2

I've had a crazy few days as it's market week and we have been promoting Skweez Couture By Jill Zarin. I know it is not coming out until September, but I have already seen the Spring collection and I love it so much and I am so excited!! Sign up for Skweez newsletter at SkweezCouture.com to keep up with all of the exciting happenings! I spent so much lovely time with my family last week. It was a blessing having everyone together. I'm helping Ally get ready to go to her new university. It's going to be harder for me this year. Last year she was a short train ride away. This year she is attending a school down south and I could go a few months without seeing her. I will miss her terribly and worry about her even more than usual. They grow up too fast. Can you believe how fast season four went by? I can't believe it is over. What a season it was! Morocco, Luann's music video, meeting and befriending Cindy, and the craziness; so many memories, some good, some not so good, but I try to be myself and believe that I am doing my best to be the best person I can be. Do I always succeed? Of course not. But we are all human. All of us. I'm still rather upset with Ramona. Not at the fact that she was inaccurate about whether I am an alcoholic or not. But the fact that she found it completely fine to "out" someone in a program that is anonymous. I worry about how this will effect people watching this who may now fear going to AA and getting help with their problem. Ramona claims that she did not know that AA was Alcoholics "Anonymous." I find that hard to believe. She knows she is wrong. Why can't she just own up to it? On my website I have already received letters from people showing concern over Ramona's careless words. One letter stated that her sister had just joined AA but was now worried that she would be outed and it could effect her new job. This is horrible. There is no shame in going to AA, whether it is for yourself or to support a friend or a loved one. I think Ramona and the rest of us need to realize that there is a responsibility as to how far we should take our snarky remarks and opinions. When you are on television, people get influenced by your words at times. This is not a good message to have out there. I can only hope Ramona takes some time to reflect upon this and realizes where to draw the line in the future. Here is a link to AA for more info. Alcoholics Anonymous I want to add, I did appreciate Ramona's public apology to my stepdaughter Jennifer Zarin. Ramona's words hurt us all deeply, but apology accepted. Of course Alex never accepts my apologies, that is why I said I was done. Not everyone can be friends, but I believe we can all be cordial and that's how I intend to be towards her and her husband in the future. I have seen and heard too many things they have said, not just about me, that make me not want to be their friends. It's as simple as that. I have tried for four years and at some point you have to say "enough" and let go. The constant back and forth of the situation just isn't healthy. I really do feel I have changed since last season, but I think Ramona and Alex expected me to change only to their liking. I changed to make myself a better person and to smarten up and realize who my real friends are. I would like to thank all of you for subscribing to my newsletter. This was my first season of doing weekly newsletters and I am truly grateful to all of you who have written me and shared your opinions and personal stories. Thank you to each and every one of you for your support. I am still going to do weekly newsletters and I want your input. I am already planning a recipe club, travel tips, etc. Please post your comments on JillZarin.com and tell me what else you would like to see here. At this point I do not know what the future holds for me on Real Housewives, but as soon as I know I will share it with you. Love, Jill XO